Searching For The Pure Gospel of Jesus Led Me To Islam
My name is Sharon.
I'm American & live in Texas. When I was a child, I was taught
to worship God at the appropriate times- Christmas, Easter, &
Need Help Day. We went to church but we weren't crazy enough to
let that affect our lifestyle or anything. After all people who
base their lives around God are annoying & need therapy right?
So, this was our way & our family seemed quite pleased with
it until I hit puberty. I wanted to know why God created me &
no one could give me a satisfactory answer. Go through this life
for what? A house, a car , & 2.5 children did not seem like
a good reason to me.
I needed to
do something remarkable to give my life purpose & then everyone
would remember me. I had trouble motivating myself when I realized
I cared very little what others thought of me. I decided to eat
,drink & be merry because I did not have a clue. I had dedicated
myself to thrills & merriment AND I WAS GOOD AT IT. My parents
declared it Need Help Day and began to pull out their only defence-
the Bible. I decided it was time to be on my own my parents did
not understand my right to party & they were so boring. I left
with 5 dollars & went to live with flower children.
Life was just
a big party. Then , I began to feel sorry for my parents at Christ-
mas time & went home. They had a wonderful surprise planned
for me- a Christian Reform school just for me! I was soon packed,
shipped and on my way. I arrived at the door of this home for wayward
girls & was led into an office to meet the evangelist that ran
the ministry that ran the home." What's your name ?'' ,he said
as he extended a friendly hand shake. I told him my name & shook
his hand. Then, he managed to surprise me by biting my thumb, "
Don,t you give me that HIPPY handshake! We'll soon run the devil
out of you.!" I made the mistake of saying,"Can I leave
with him?". The rest of the day was spent showing me my bed
& telling me the rules.Bars on the windows,surrounded by a barbed
wire fence, intercoms in every room so that THEY could hear you,
radio bible broadcast in the morning at 5, 15 minutes of every class
in bible study, then home to bible study ,then more radio bible
broadcast then 2hrs to bathe & get ready for tomorrow. I knew
the first ten minutes I was there that I would make a break for
it at the first possible opportunity.
The next day
I jumped the barbed wire fence & booked it. I took hitched a
ride with a stranger ,who to my horror turned out to be one of the
dreaded WORKERS. They drove me right back to the home & I was
ushered in to PAPA'S office for punishment. I found out that Papa
was a man about 6'5 , middle aged. He asked me my name. I was angry
at this point and responded with," Do you talk to God?"
He said, "Yes, quite often." Isaid," Then why don't
you ask him what my name is?" I was beaten severly with a black
jack by a 24 year old man that wanted to please Christ by putting
me in my place. I never gave him the pleasure of seeing me cry.
Amazingly enough, I am very grateful for all of these events because
this was the beginning of my search for the true church of Jesus
having painfully become aware that this was definitely not it. Iwas
forced to read the Bible & read it I did, not for them-for me
I was searching
for truth for myself. I asked Jesus to save me and come into my
heart. Everything was supposed to be wonderful after that , but
everything wasn't. Great, I was going to heaven now(everyone assured
me of that) BUT WHY WAS I CREATED IN THE FIRST PLACE? AND God,WHY
WON'T YOU LET ME TELL YOU MY PROBLEMS -WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH
JESUS?JESUS IS WONDERFUL BUT I NEED YOU. I was finally released
from the home back to the loving home of my family. They were eating
pig meat & it bothered me. I told them the Bible says in Deuteronomy
not to eat pigs. They said I was driving them crazy ,had become
a religious fanatic & it was plainly not normal to worry about
what God thinks ALL THE TIME! I was asked by my parents to find
someplace else to live. I was 15 years old. I searched for the pure
teachings of Jesus I knew belief in Jesus was not enough-I need
guidance and answers. I led a very lonely life even though I was
surrounded by people.I went to many many many churches searhing
I never considered
Islam as a possibility because Christian preachers had already warned
us of THOSE HEATHEN MUSLIMS(now here's the funny part) AND HOW THEY
FORCE YOU INTO THEIR RELIGION. All the lies they told me about Islam
kept me from even putting Islam on the shelf as a possibility. Preachers
tell tall tales but they have no affect on the plans of Allah. I
read the Bible for many years because I wanted to be sure of which
Christian Religion I should join. I had heard many ministers claiming
to have the Holy Spirit guiding them, and they were all teaching
different doctrines. I came to realize that ANYONE could claim almost
anything as Biblical teaching and I understood why, when I came
across too many contradictions and mistakes to print here. The modern
day Bible was collected and binded together in the 16th century.
It was supervised
by King James who had control of the church at that time. Books
of the Bible we have today are books which agreed with the interpretation
of the scholars of a particular school of thought. Thechapters they
did not feel expressed their point of view were not included in
the Bible and called fraudulent. The average man never got a look
at those chapters because the matters of the heart were decided
for him by the church council which was funtioning under the political
wheel of the government. I finally threw my hands in the air &
gave up because of these Bible verses. ISAIH 46:3 I will not meet
thee as a man. ISAIH 46:8 neither shall I know the loss of children.
HEBREWS 2:18 For in that he himself hath suffered being tempted
he is able to soccour them that are tempted. JAMES 1:13 Let no man
say when he is tempted I am tempted of God for God cannot be tempted
of evil, neither tempteth he any man. 1 JOHN 3:2 Beloved now are
we the sons of God. 1JOHN 3:6 Whosover abideth in him sinneth not
. Whosover sinneth hath not seen him neither known him. 1JOHN 1:8
If we say we have no sin we decieve ourselves and the truth is not
in us. MATTHEW 15:24 I am not sent but unto the lost sheep of the
house of Israel (He did not say he was sent unto all mankind) MATTHEW
19:17 And he said unto them,"Why callest thou me good? There
is none good but one, that is God. MARK 6:4 (Here Jesus calls himself
I was told that
God was always there that he was not made. We are told that Jesus
is made in HEBREWS 2:9 and HEBREWS 1: 4 ECCLESIASTES 3:19 so that
man hath no preeminence above a beast. GENESIS 1:28 .. and have
dominion over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.
9:5 ..the dead know not anything neither have they anymore a reward.
PSALMS 19:11 Moreover by them is thy servant warned and in the keeping
of them there is great reward. ECCLESIASTES 10:19 ..but money answereth
all things. ISAIH 52:3 ..and ye shall be redeemed without money.
1ST TIMOTHY 6:10 For the Love of money is the root of all evil.
DEUTERONOMY 6:4 Hear O Israel the lord our God is one Lord PSALMS
82:6 I have said ye are gods and all of you are children of the
Most High HEBREWS 2:9 But we see Jesus who was made a little lower
than the angels. HEBREWS 1:2 Spoken to us by his son.. being made
so much better than the angels. GENESIS 32:30 I saw God face to
face I JOHN 4:12 no man hath seen God at any time PROVERBS 20:1
Wine is a mocker strong drink is raging and whosoever is decieved
thereby is not wise. 1 TIMOTHY 5:23 Drink no longer water but use
a little wine for thy stomachs sake and thine often infirmities.
GENESIS 1:22 And God blessed them saying be fruitful and multiply.
1 CORINTHIANS 7:1 it is good for a man not to touch a woman 2ndTIMOTHY
3:16 All scripture is given by inspiration of God. 1CORINTHIANS
7:6 and I speak this by permission and not of commandment 1 CORINTHIANS
She is happier if she so abide after my judgement and I think also
that I have the spirit of God.
2:6 Who being in the form of God thought it not robbery to be equal
to God. JOHN 5:57 Ye have neither heard his voice at anytime or
seen his shape. 2nd CORINTHIANS 11:8 I robbed other churches (SAYS
PAUL) 1JOHN 3:9 Whosover is born of God doth not commit sin JOHN
5:30 I can of mine ownself do nothing JOHN 8: 42 Jesus said unto
them if God were your father ye would love me for I proceeded forth
and came from God neither came I of myself, but he sent me.
AND THE LIST
GOES ON.....THE LIST GOES ON. Is there any wonder I was bewildered?
I became convinced that God hated me because he would not let me
find the truth.About this time an acquaintance sent me a pamphlet
about Islam. She was American like me. I felt so sorry for the poor
stupid misled thing. I was quite sure she was weak minded &
had let her Arab husband brain wash her. I opened the pamphlet because
I was sure it was stupid &there is nothing better to make fun
of than Muslims. The pamphlet said THINK VERY CAREFULLY ABOUT THE
I had never
been exposed to anything but arab boozers & muslims that were
not practising their religion. Those people were so easy to put
down. I would tell them look at you YOU can't even believe in your
own religion enough to practice it. The guy who wrote this pamphlet
was a different sort of Arab - to my dismay not an easy target.
I stopped reading in the middle of the book because I knew HE KNOWS
THE TRUTH! I can't believe this ! God has given the truth to the
Muslims! They are Arabs! I'm not an Arab! This is a disaster! I
cannot be a Muslim everyone I know hates Muslims! I will have to
dress like those women & take off my beloved makeup! How could
you do this to me God? Then I thought I'd play a game with God ...Well,
they might not have the truth & I'm not sure they have the truth
so I'll just forget about all of this. I had been on my own since
age 15 & was now 26 . I was lonely. I prayed to God to send
me a husband. I asked God for a religios man (I had a Christian
man in mind when I placed this request) I made a solemn promise
to God to marry the very next man who asked me.(I was going to take
it as a sign) Allah has never failed to answer my requests.
The next man
who asked me to marry him was Palestinian-he was 2 things I did
not want in a man . He was an Arab & he was Muslim. However,
he was different than any man I'd ever met. He did not drink .I
complained to God - I was con vinced God sent me an Arab Muslim
to ask me for marriage because he hated me. I was now angry with
God & decided to marry this muslim since God will not help me.
However, I felt about this man's background- I have to say it was
love at first sight. The most surprising thing was he seemed to
know everything I needed. It was the first time I felt like another
human being loved me. We married.Our marriage was horrible I told
him not to ever ever discuss his religion with me & he didn't.
I put him through a lot of misery in the beginning.Then, one night
he brought a Quran home to me. He handed it to me explaing to me
that it was a holy book told me I could read it if I wanted to.
My response in front of him was. Why should I read that ? Just set
it over there I don't want it. I waited until he went to bed &
was asleep. I prayed "Oh God show me whether or not this book
is true. If the book is true I will accept it. If it is false show
me." I opened the Quran and randomly read:
Read!) In the name Of thy Lord and Cherisher, Who created- Created
man, out of A leech like clot: Proclaim! And thy Lord Is Most Bountiful,-
He Who taught (The use of) the Pen,- Taught man that Which he knew
I felt strangely
some new emotion - I flipped the book open to another spot- I read:
There will be
those of the people of the book who when they see the truth they
will recognise it.
I quite suddenly
became aware of the fact that I was touching something very Holy
for the first time. I was in AWE. I knew I was holding the very
words of God. Then I realized for the first time that God did not
hate me because he let me find this miracle. I felt JOY .I had found
the treasure! I had finally found the truth! Then I felt ashamed
that I had been so arrogant towards my Creator & Merciful Allah.
I knew I had been given Mercy because I found the truth when I wasn't
even looking for it. Allah in His Mercy sent it to a poor blind
fool.I sat transfixed for quite some time rejoicing in my new found
treasure. It was 4 am . Who cares?! I have found a miracle -I ran
to wake my husband. "Honey!Wake up! I need to tell you something
you don't know! My huband woke up & said " I have to work
tomorrow what are you talking about?" "That book you gave
me is a miracle from God!" "Why aren't you guys screaming
from the mountaintops about this book!" My husband smiled,"Every
ayah(verse) has it's miracle- but not everyone wants to know about
it." We have 5 children now,and have been married fifteen years.
Islam is my way of life. Now, when rednecks harrass me about why
I'm wearing this thing on my head I have to smile & be patient
-I was once that arrogant redneck. I understand where they are coming
from BUT DON' T WISH TO RETURN. You may not believe it :
THERE IS NO
God BUT ALLAH MUHAMMED IS HIS MESSENGER